Good old times
Been to Gränden this evening and met up with Karin and Linda. Sadly Sandra couldn’t come. I took the regular, Baked potato and curry chicken and some Vitamin Everyday drink, black currant. I normally use to take orange juice but I’m in love with the Vitamin Everyday drinks. Too bad that one little bottle cost quite a lot otherwise I would stack my fridge with those. Hmmm…maybe I should spend more money on that than alcohol and other shit though. LOL…
Met my dear sister and my adorable nephew William today. Damn he has grown since last time I saw him. The time goes too fast.
The good thing is that I start going back to my old self. I feel stronger even after all the drama that’s been going on. Well…now I’m going to go to sleep. Take care. Night
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Not much
That’s going on. I’m cleaning the apartment and packing, prepare for the Sunday coffee time. Try to stay sharp, just want it to be monday evening now, me in the car to my parents. Need a break badly.
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Quick update
Started a new class today which is Visual Communication and it seems like it’s going to be a lot to do in short period of time but at the same time it will be fun. On Monday Copywriter class starts. We will see how that will be.
2D class is being a bit, well I just don’t feel like picking up a pen at this moment. Just feels like hell. It’s been too much of ”must do” when it comes to art right now. I just want to do my things. Have some I need to finish.
In about 40 min I’ll head over to Carro for idol evening with Carro, Anna and Kalle. Well that’s about it for now.
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Its the moment of truth and the moment to lie
The moment to live and the moment to die
The moment to fight, the moment to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight
To the right To the left we will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth, It’s a Brave New World from the last to the first
To the right, To the left, We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth, it’s a Brave New World
I believe in nothing, not the end and not the start
I believe in nothing, not the earth and not the stars
I believe in nothing, not the day and not the dark
I believe in nothing but the beating of our hearts
I believe in nothing 100 suns until we part
I believe in nothing not in satan, not in god
I believe in nothing, not in peace and not in war
I believe in nothing but the truth of who we are
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Note to self…
Do not wait until the last day to do stuff…
No matter how depressed or lack of creativity you feel you have.
So do not feel like holding a pen and draw right not. The illustration class have been killing me. Damn you 2D!!!
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dance like nobody’s watching
Woke up, started the computer, logged in on Spotify and saw Jet’s ”Black Hearts (On Fire)” as added. Played it and danced like nobody’s watching while making breakfast.
I do feel better and less stressed now. Though I need to make my 2D assignment for class tomorrow. Holding a pen and drawing is not something I look forward to at this moment. It’s been too much lately. I just wanna do my own drawings and not forced to do something else. But I guess I have to learn if this is what I’m going to work with. Then I won’t be allowed to do everything that I want without have to do stuff like this.
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Sentimental
Remember when I heard and saw this movie (Enough) for the first time. I was with my friends Sandra (Kan Dee) and Karin. Haven’t listen to the song in a long time and haven’t seen the movie in a while and really want to see it NOW. Wish I had it. I remember Sandra giving me the song and when I was going to burn it down on a CD something was wrong with it because it ended up on the CD in slow motion.
The strength to stand alone
The power of not knowing and letting go
I guess I’ve found my way
It’s simple when it’s right
Feeling lucky just to be here tonight
And happy just to be me and be alive
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decisions is decisions
Sometimes you come to the point if you shall listen to your heart or your head. Right now I’m so lost that I don’t know which voice is the heart or the head. I’m so confused and yesterday I had my very first panic attack. Anna, Carro, Kalle and Denis invited me to a lovely dinner we all help cooking, (I’ll be giving it back to you shortly) and when I got home I realized that London, Camden, Koko, 30 Seconds To Mars and my lovely friends of the Echelon will have to be put to the side. It was not a decision that was easy to make. But it had to be. And it didn’t help that this was released yesterday either nor that it sounds amazing.
I think I can wait for the album to come out and then head to a show. Instead I’ll see if I will make it to a theater with my family and try to get my life back.
I’m tired of crying and feeling tired.
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So true
Horoscopes are damn scary at times. This is what it said for today:
The pace of your day is likely to be fast, with unexpected situations arising that demand your immediate attention. Reacting impulsively won’t help now, for you could waste energy by going off in a wrong direction. You are eager to do well, but you need to slow down and make sure you stay on track or you’ll just end up spinning your wheels without accomplishing much at all.
couldn’t be more true than that.
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Jason Brooks
Found a new illustrator that I like, named Jason Brooks. He does more of realistic illustrations but I like it.
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between the panic attacks
I got two bombs in the mail today
Well that’s the first thought that came into my mind because I completely forgot that I was supposed to get a package from EMI Sweden with some 30 Seconds to Mars Promo stuff…
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My home
Some pictures of my apartment. Ignore the yellow walls. I did not chose them nor do I like them.
I want another coffee table. So one or two Lack square tables will be bought in for the apartment and if only I get grey walls then everything will be awesome.
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Little Miss Princess
Little Miss Princess
Little miss Princess
How do you do?
Got yourself a mistress
or just walked on through
Little miss Princess
are the stories true
lost your soul to incest
by a doctor named sue
Little miss Princess
How do you keep your youth
without becoming helpless
and live strong with the truth
//Jenny Illikainen
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No fun.
I’m right now in an emotional roller coaster or to tell the honest truth, I’m emotionally exhausted. So I’m not much of fun at the moment. People around me can tell. I’m just going to apologize if I have been mean and bitchy. Right now I’m just gonna be in my world and sort things out and hopefully it will get better.
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one step closer to the edge
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I’m one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break
//Linkin Park, One Step Closer
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God falls down on his knees
God falls down on his knees
Come here and drown your sorrows
You aren’t going to need them tomorrow
As the darkness drift away
God falls down on his knees and pray
Forgiveness can come easily
When your ego is drowned in the well.
-Jenny Illikainen
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The girl with the bow 2
Here’s an proper photograph of the painting. It looks better in real life. Did adjust the colors a little in photoshop to try and get it as close to the original as possible. And now you can see the ugly yellow tapestry that surrounds me.
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Last night
So the art show is over. Two days of work was taken down in less than an hour. The show turned out great though. A lot of people came and it was really a beautiful show. So great work Group 2. It was great to get some time to see everyones work too. Haven’t had the time to really look at them.
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Quick update
Just came home from the exam and fixing things for the art show. So in two hours I’ll be back in school for the art show. I got very good feedback from the teachers and I passed the class. Hooray! Hooray!!! HOOORAY!!!
Been extremely stressed today esp. in the morning and I did brake down at one point. But after that I got back on track and we got the things done.
Now I’m going to take a nap and then eat and get ready for the show.
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SHAPES
So this is what’s going on right now. The examination is tomorrow. Been working all day with trying to get everything up. Of course some people can never keep a deadline. We have thought of some stuff for them to place their stuff but some, sorry folks they ain’t gonna show. Your fucking problem not ours. I mean we’ve given the whole class a clear deadline and if they can’t fucking keep it it’s their fault. It ends up that they give us so much more work than we need. We’re already in overload.
Got feedback today of one of my pieces. Thank you very much teacher for sending me the feedback the day before the exam. So I re-did it but will only be able to print it and show her but it won’t be seen at the exam itself because can’t change the slide show now.
Been listening to Linkin Park mostly the old albums to get my frustration out. So need to go to a place and just scream out my frustration. I’m so stressed and tired and emotionally tired of everything right now. Some people and their opinion about other people. I just don’t care right now. Jealousy and shit too. Come on and give it a break. It’s your friend for Christ sake. I mean people come to me all the time to talk but when I open my mouth no one listen. It’s frustrating. AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
Ok I’ll stop now. Gonna make some lunch for tomorrow. Guess I won’t have too much time on my hands tomorrow so got to be prepared.
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I’m leaving on a jet plane
So now flight #1 is booked. Going south to visit my family and friends and of course my lovely monster and the old man. It’s so lonely here without the pets and I can’t wait to see my nephew William. Haven’t seen him since the end of July. Babies grow too fast.
I really need a break. Been working like hell and now after the illustration class I’ll study 125% from beginning of Nov until the end of January if I’m not mistaken. I’m already exhausted from everything. My heart isn’t happy. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, just wanna sleep all day long.
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Look for a place
”Look for a place where there’s no way your eyes could ever reach”
- Rasmus Kellerman , Tiger Lou
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Stressed
I finished everything last night for the exam which were really good but my heart was racing so bad. Went to sleep and woke up at 8am with a racing heart. Been stressed all day mainly because of fixing tickets for flights and concert tickets. Been into town to buy stuff so we can hang everything for the exam. Hopefully it will be all right.
Have taken a looooong bath. Think I was in there for 2 hours listening to Sigur Rós and just relaxing in the light of candles. Was really really nice. Calmed down a little but still a bit stressed. Hopefully I can fix the plane tickets tomorrow. And pray that they’re not too expensive. *fingers crossed*
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The girl with the bow
Here’s the last piece for the exam on Wednesday. I’m done with it tonight + gluing everything on big black boards. I’ll post pictures of everything later probably when it’s at the exam. Anyways here’s a preview of my favorite piece yet in my own humble opinion. The Illustration class have really helped boosting my confidence when it comes to my creations.
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Busy busy busy
Got alot to do today. I so need 48 hours on one day. Damn.
So what’s on the list today:
-Clean the apartment
-Do the dishes
-Finish the self portrait for the exam
-Finish the extra art piece for the exam
-Add everything on to ”Kapa plattor” for the exam
-Book flights
-Take a bath/shower
-Make something to eat (probably will be just noodles today)
-Head over to Bäckis for the Sunday Coffee hosted at Julia this Sunday.
I’m so glad to go down to my parents and meet my friends and family again. I really miss my little monster, Lillan and the old man Bobben. I so need to get a pet. I’m dying not having one. Or my soul at least.
my monster
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Jenn
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